Normally this wouldn’t be such a big deal — people fall all the time in yoga — but my fall came as a result of trying too hard, you know — getting to gung-ho to go upside down.
There’s nothing wrong with trying hard to achieve, to be a hard worker is something I value. But when determination is left unbalanced, it can go haywire — stumbling from impatience to frustration and ending up as an overzealous mess.
Which is how I was in yoga this morning.
First it was in supported handstand practice. My legs kicked into the air with such ferocity that my feet went flailing against the wall, creating a massive thump. It was the kind of sound that causedÂ others to lift their heads andÂ see what the hell just happened.
When I went for Forearm stand, in the middle of the room, the same level of ferocity propelled my action. It was too much. My urgency to get into the balance backfired, and I landed splat on my mat.
I’m a do-er, so allowing things to be as they will doesn’t come natural. When I want something to happen, I get so caught up in my efforts that I skip the step of allowing. Even in yoga, I’ve been sitting in meditation when the rest of the class takes Savasana. It’s like I’m trying to get it all done…in YOGA!
But really, if I can wrap my head (and body) around just two things, allowing would come easier.
First, is trust.
I’ve got to accept that things will happen as they will. Many times, I want so badly to impact an outcome that I strain my energy into action. Not only could this cause wrinkles on my forehead, it could be blocking my best result. Ever heard the phrase getting in the way of your own self? It’s this!Â When I trust that things will work out and acceptÂ there’s only so much I can control, it makes life a lot easier… IÂ don’t have to do it all!
Also, it helps toÂ create the space for flow.
There’s a time to take action, and then there’s the time to let things flow– to be as they will. So when I’m lifting into an inversion I can useÂ my energy forÂ part of the work, and then relax the efforts soÂ the pose canÂ take shape. Flow is an energy– it will carry my efforts if I give it space to do its thing. I notice this with writing and my other creative endeavors. When I feel stuck from trying too hard to figure it out, to get the right words, once I get up from my desk and stop thinking — the words often come. Even if I’m just walking to the kitchen for a drink, I find that a little movement gets the creativity flowing.
I know, easier said than done. But just by being aware, the first step is already there.
How are you at allowing things to be?